Have you ever started something with no idea what you’re going to do with it, or where it’s going to go? Perhaps you had a canvas and some paints, and you set to work without any clues as to what the finished product would be. Or maybe, in a frustrated and desperate attempt to be super-spiritual, you’ve prayed the oh-so-very pious “God, lead me to whatever scripture You want me to read today” prayer, and let your Bible fall open randomly to 2 Kings 9:20, at which point you decide to never do that again, because who is God to tell you how to drive? Your road rage isn’t THAT bad…whose side is He on, anyway?
It’s also possible that you started writing a blog post without any plans for what it will communicate. But I would never do that…
To start when you know the beginning, but not the middle or the end, is actually a simple task. Because there is no distraction by way of details or developments, all you must do is decide. Decide to start, and with each brushstroke or page turn or speed limit sign passed or word typed, decide to continue. Nothing good may come of it…but you’ll never know if you never decide.
The same applies to trusting someone. There is no real plan one can put in place to trust someone. Sure, relationships are built and strengthened, but trust is not something you simply stumble upon or unexpectedly find yourself in. Trust always begins with a decision. You cannot trust someone unless you share something with them, or give them responsibility, and watch what they do with it. Likewise, no one can know if you are trustworthy unless they decide to put you in a place of trust, and you are not proven trustworthy until you have made the decision to protect what’s been given to you.
Many people are waiting for the moment they suddenly find themselves in an intimate relationship with God, free from fear and doubt and skepticism, and defined by trust and love. Some live their lives waiting for a sign that they can trust God; that He’s good, and that He has their best interest at heart. But that moment doesn’t exist. And the “sign” is already here—it’s called the Bible, and it is filled with stories and promises that point to God’s goodness, and His love, and His desire to be in a Father-child relationship with each one of us. The only way to develop trust with God is to decide to trust Him. There is no shortcut, and there is no way to ease into it. At some point, we just have to make the decision.
I know that everyone has been hurt. No one is free from offense. If you want to, you can come up with countless excuses as to why God “doesn’t deserve your trust,” or why it’s too risky. But the only way we can discover the “middle” and the “end” of trusting God is by deciding to begin. Decide to start, and with each day lived…each situation encountered…each person interacted with…each speed limit sign passed…decide to continue.
Only good will come of it. But you’ll never truly know until you decide.